PS- I luv RuPauls drag race, lol

sooo...it has been a while... I am kinda glad... but not...?

lol

The semester is damn near over- and lets face it- I am EXCITED...

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I am hoping on making some huge changes soon! HUGE!! :)

thought this was kinda cute

Girls are like
apples on trees. The best
ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for
the good ones because they are afraid
of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they
just get the rotten apples from the ground
that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples
at the top think something is wrong with
them, when in reality, they're amazing.
They just have to wait for the right
boy to come along, the one
who's brave enough
to climb
all the way
to the top
of the tree.

shame on me

When it rains it pours... I will leave it at that.

I am so happy the semester is over. But I am excited that I get to go back to Purchase... The grass is always greener, right?

Ended the semester on an okay note...
Mother Nature hates us and is ready to bring death and famine upon the World. Not nice Mama Nat.

Paul Taylor intensive- a great decision on my part. learned a lot, feel good. Bikram Yoga... glad I did it, hoping to continue, starting... tomorrow, I promise.

I am ready for some changes- all around. I pray I can do this... I can do this.

Tired of getting involved with men... the wrong men... all the time...

I am so numb sometimes, I need help.

I can't even cry anymore... haven't been able to for a while

DRAMA.... (buffy monologue-ish)

No! No!

What about me? I love you so much... And I tried to
make you go away... I killed you and it didn't help.

And I hate it! I hate that it's *so* hard... and that
you can hurt me *so* much.

I know everything that you did, because you did it to me.
Oh, God! I wish that I wished you
dead. I don't. I can't.

Strong is fighting! It's hard, and it's painful, and it's every
day. It's what we have to do. And we can do it together.

But if you're too much of a coward for that, then
burn. If I can't convince you that you belong in this world, then I
don't know what can. But do *not* expect me to watch. And *don't* expect
me to mourn for you, because...

Call of the Wild

One night after supper, the lead dog turned up a snowshoe rabbit.
The dog lay down low to the race, his body flashing forward,
leap by leap.He was sounding the deeps of his nature and the parts of his
nature that were deeper than he, going back into the wombs of time...



Night came on, and a full moon rose high over the trees...
lighting the land till it lay bathed in ghostly day.
And the strain of the primitive remained alive and active.
Faithfulness and devotion, things born of fire and roof were his...
yet he retained his wildness and wiliness.
And from the depths of the forest, a call still sounded.'

Have you ever felt like this?

I remember way back way back when
I said I never wanna see your face again
Cause you were loving yes you were loving somebody else
And I knew oh yes I knew I couldn't control myself
And now they bring you back into my life again
And so I put on a face just like your friends
But I think you know oh yes you know what's going on
Cause the feelings in me oh yes in me are burning strong

But I will never be your stepping stone
Take it all or leave me alone
I will never be your stepping stone
I'm standing upright on my own

You used to call me up from time to time
And it would be so hard for me not to cross the line
The words of love lay on my lips just like a curse
And I knew oh yes I knew they'd only make it worse
And now you have the nerve to play along
Just like the maestro beats in your song
You get your kicks you get your kicks from playing me
And the less you give the more I want so foolishly

But I will never be your stepping stone
Take it all or leave me alone
I will never be your stepping stone
I'm standing upright on my own...

No I will never be your stepping stone
Take it all or leave me alone
I will never be your stepping stone
I'm standing upright on my own

Never be your stepping stone
Take it all or leave me alone
I will never be your stepping stone
I'm standing upright on my own

I will never be a stepping stone

So much has been going on... I am stuck.

Just finished my last performance of Nutcracker at SUNY Purchase... Thank God! No more RATS or PARENTS!!! or nasty children... (long story)

I am really lost in thought, lost all the time with everything actually.

BUT.... I have done a lot. Fall Ball Purchase 08, hosted and performed 3 numbers and crowned the "new" queen... did not deserve it, but whateve...

I am goin out to party. I deserve it... hopefully I won't cause any trouble, lol.... u neva know.

I kinda like him... though he is so distant... (I'm not supposed to like anyone) So obvi... I gotta do me.... whatever the fuck that means....